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2010-01-27Sonia Szóstak - [摄影师]
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曾今,我靜靜沉浸在自己那一小小的塊空間里,認為那所有的一切都是獨特的,任凭自己穿梭自如,處處充满独特氣息,然而现在它漸漸消失了? 我極力的想抓住這即將憑空蒸發的一切,茫然回首,这正式我隨著時光流逝而遠去的青春氣息。
工作后,那腦袋裡裝的東西不再是以前那些與內心零距離的感悟,那些讓我有著共鳴的話語和影像變得模糊不清,我忽然意識到我竟然在慢慢被周遭同化著,慢慢變成那些俗不可耐的面孔,為此我使勁的看書看電影,讓自己和自己獨處。有時候我竟意識不到我已經畢業了,也許我還會停留在這裡,很長時間。
這陣子特別容易發脾氣,焦慮從沒離開過我的身體,每天回到家緊緊拿著本書,不看哪怕放在身邊也好,這樣的恐懼感有點可笑,只是焦慮無法揮散。
欣慰的是我自己還能記得我究竟喜歡的是哪些?拋開喧囂,我回到原處,希望能夠靜靜的呆在那裡。
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flowers in december - mazzy star
before i let you down again
i just want to see you in your eyes
i wouldn't have taken everything,
out on you
i only thought, you could, understand
they say every man goes blind in his heart,
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away
and i got nothing more to say about it
nothing more (to you) or me
send me your flowers, of your december
send me your dreams, of your (candlelly wine)
i got just one thing i can't give you
just one more thing of mine
they say every man goes blind in his heart
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away
and i've been wondering why you let me down
and i've been taking it all for granted


